Dear 2013,
I am happy to see you go! Nothing personal, but I am happy to embrace a new year. Of course, you had some wonderful highs: my mom got married. I got to take my kids to the beach for the very first time. I had a breathtaking wedding. I even finished the A-Z April Blogging Challenge with all three of my professional blogs and attempted National Novel Writing Month for the first time (and got a 5th of the way through). Yes, I have grown so much as an individual and a writer that I’m proud of myself and satisfied overall with you.
However, it is time to move on to a new beginning. My 30th birthday is coming up in a few months, and I’m eager to be a much healthier, happier, and relaxed person when that day rolls around. You, 2013, brought me a lot of heartache and discouragement. I lost two aunts. I had to deal with a lot of illness and a broken toe. I had to struggle with strained relationships and finding out painful secrets from my past. There was so much negativity that it threatened to steal away all the happiness, joy, contentment, and awe in my life. Sometimes–far too many times–it succeeded.
So, 2013, I’m not shedding too many tears to see you go. I’m finished with the drama. I’m done with all the complaining and nagging and judgement. I’m through with the ongoing internal self-bashing and nights lying awake reliving my mistakes and regrets. I am so over you and the turmoil you so readily threw into my face. I know, you aren’t fully to blame. I share much of it, too. But we had a toxic relationship, and I am ending it now! It’s over; we are through. I will remember the good times, but I’m tossing all the baggage aside and stepping out fresh and as unburdened as possible–ready to make the most of the new year. I’m off to focus on only the positives and slowly delete the negativity from my life.
Farewell,
Rosalie
Letters from a Shattered Soul 